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So all those times I said I was tired before I had a baby, I was lying, I didn't know what being tired really felt like. It's been 6 months since I've had a good night of sleep. Hakan's normal night is waking up twice to eat, which is fine, but on his bad nights he wakes up 3, 4 or more times...that's not fine. Even on nights when he only wakes up once, I wake up a bunch of times anticipating him waking up. I don't think I've had my REM sleep in ages...I'm sure I have, just doesn't feel like it. I am exhausted, physically, mentally and emotionally. I do miss my naps that I used to be able to take when Hakan was first born, I didn't have to work, when Hakan napped, I napped, not anymore:( If you ask my husband what my favorite hobby is, he knows it's sleeping. I know some day I will be able to sleep again. However, a good friend of mine at church says that I will be tired for the rest of my life...thanks for the positive words of encouragement. We need to go to bed earlier, so it's mostly our fault, it's just hard to change old habits. Just thought I'd share how tired I am, I'm just taking it one day at a time.