Saturday, January 28, 2012

Trust Him

I had a post started at the beginning of this week about how I wish I could sometimes have do-over days.  Days where I don’t react too quickly, have more patience and not get as frustrated with my kids and with Derek having to work so many hours.

Then God shows me His unconditional love, the unconditional love that I so wish I could possess every single second of my tiny life on this earth.

I had five friends offer to watch my babies for me just this week, so I could get some much needed rest and things done.  I was completely overwhelmed.  I’m not good at accepting help, little miss independent here…where does Hakan get it?  I’m also not good at asking for it, so when five people just offered, it brought me to tears.  God has placed us in a church surrounded by people who care about us, and we are so thankful.

It’s amazing what one measly little afternoon to yourself can do, I felt like a new person, and all I did was some sewing and organize the garage. 

Then another friend took them the next afternoon as well and another friend and I went out to eat (Café Latte, for people who know it) for lunch and dessert, so yummy!  Then we went to one of my favorite fabric stores in St. Paul, that I normally don’t have time for, yay for new fabric:)

Then another friend is coming over on Monday morning while I get groceries.

We are feeling beyond blessed during this crazy time.  I cannot even put into words how grateful we are.

Then God throws in something else to make us even more thankful, something that brought me to my knees and crying with thanksgiving...He likes to do that, remind us that He's in control and right there with you.

Derek called last night on his way home from work telling me he was in an accident, my heart stopped as I heard sirens in the background.  In a panic, I asked him if he was ok and if his two co-workers that were with him were ok.  He said everyone was fine, including the girl that ran into them.

Derek was driving on a four lane road, the girl was going pretty fast coming up to this road on a side street and sailed right through the stop sign, she said her brakes didn’t work.  He saw her only seconds before and tried to turn, but they hit each other and Derek’s car slid across three lanes of traffic to the other side of the street onto the side walk.  Both air bags deployed and the car is probably totaled…but my Derek is fine, and that’s all that matters.

I hung up the phone and just started crying and thanking God that nothing worse had happened, all the while thinking what if it had been a different phone call…what if...

I bundled the kids up and we went to pick them up.  Of course I start crying again when I saw him and just put my arms around him in death grip and never wanted to let go.

Thank God nothing worse happened.  He was protected and kept safe.

Every night before bed, we pray with Hakan and Adeline, “Please protect and keep daddy safe as he goes to and from work tomorrow.”  God answered our prayer.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6

It makes the beginning of my week totally insignificant.

A new perspective.

I have my family with me, safe and sound, thanks to my 
Heavenly Father who watches over us.  I love them so much.

What else really matters?

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

I have to say these verses out loud a's something have a hard time with.

I need to not worry and just live each day to its fullest, trusting my everything with God.